An English Writer's Mind

 I've done so much through my life With every accomplishment accompanied by defeat Serving as lessons so I may fight So that I may rise and stand high on my feet Though I may not have wealth Or riches or fame, to me it's all the same Thankfully I'll never know the true meaning of weak For I am not like you and I smile to those I meet  And love all those that are around me And I have something you never will As you have something I'll gladly never have I know what it's like to be loved  By those of passing and those of blood And you will never know that feeling from your offspring And even the mother that bore you This is praise that I can sing For I did not put a condition on their raising  So much is true that if you do not perish Before your wife is through You will die alone with no one to serve you You'll be forgotten By your country  By your friends  By your blood But this was the path you chose  As for me, I'll be in repose that much I propose

 I've searched for a place to lay and rest As fatigue was mere steps behind. Withered was my strength at best At ease was where I needed my mind Not far in the distance stood a quaint little Hamlet With several homes who's doorways were lit. With frail arms I rapped at the entrance Answered to me was a delicate fragrance. “What brings you here at this given hour?” a gentle voice did speak. “It is a place of rest that I seek,” a frail voice escaped this traveler. The door was ajar and peered through was a maiden Fair skin, pale lips, and hair as dark as a raven  “You may rest for the night,” said she.  To my tired delight she bade passage to me. She said, “The spare room is at the end of the hall, “If you need to freshen up, across is the bath.” It was the bed that answered the call,  But shower I must, as this was part of my path. Though dreary was I in this place The droplets fell with a cozy embrace A step in the tub of porcelain design Not needing much, this settl...

 I do my best to pass my days Not living in a foggy haze Cause every day feels like a maze When I'm missing those words of praise I miss the dates when there was play On AC islands we would stay The lonesome feelings did too stay When worlds around did turn gray And I wish the best though I don't pray That you may find your way I feel ambitious on certain days While others like a blown out bass Distorted like some broken waves  At times I wish I was unfazed But tomorrow's new that much is true Even if it's without you.

 I truly must thank you for the love that I give Has disbursed into a world far larger No longer is it directed to you or to that of a few I truly can change the lives of thousands it's true I can change the land with a thriving plan One that will allow a community to expand For art is forever, until all is removed From the mind that once fed them of the world they approved  And I will do all I can so that I may improve Not just the lives of a few but generations to come through While I may perish before my plan is complete My dream is anything but obsolete Imagine a place where languages thrive  Where science and math have a place alongside Tech and engineering and the arts as well No religion to join, wouldn't that be swell?  Sure you can practice in your home to no pain But our community will focus on pushing the plain I will change all so remember my name No action left will swelter in vain

 I've accomplished much in my life What I've put my mind to I've achieved From running a marathon to publication Learning words and exploration The world has always found a way to show me I've succeeded But complacent is how I came To live my years and down in vain  I've shared my bed with those I loved To be ripped apart below and above Yet my time with you was not like that Each time I grew I knew I might laugh That life wasn't over, it just merely begun  No matter how hard, with you it was always fun So this goodbye is damn hard to try And smile with a joy inside of my eye  I know it's the distance I know it's this place But nonetheless I'm not a disgrace It's not where either of us would want to be You must do you so you can be free I know I said where I want to be So I'll work toward that freedom from misery  My dearest Morticia for now it's goodbye Will I ever get to hold you in my arms again?  My thoughts say yes.  Will it be anyti...

 In truth I knew the moment that you Turned to live a life anew Was when you saw the picture of him And didn't refer to him as your baby I can't be mad because I've been where you're at Unsure of where you find your home or habitat  My faults my own for I care far too much That I'm willing to bleed than be walled up and such. Yet then you message telling me to  “Tell my son ‘meow’” which broke me too Confused by such I still feel your love So why do I feel like a discarded glove? Something tells me this isn't the end,  But it feels so complicated that it's hard to comprehend

I knew it was farewell the moment that you Wrote your reply without “bb” like you used to The steps for farewell are familiar to me Constant aches and pains in agony But this one hurts different than all the rest We didn't fight. We didn't argue. We were patient, caring, and understanding.  We pushed got success workout us commanding  We wanted what's right. For each other to push through. No matter what day went, a love expanding  But this place does not make you happy, nor I I want to start all again with a bright sunny sky  And that's why we need to say goodbye You need to find you so your spirit can fly May we meet again, cause this is not the end